Time to level up in real life!

Enduring the fight!

Right now I’m busy like hell with studying and trying to go down in weight, although I almost have no readers, this will be good for myself to one day read back at and understand what I went through and how I felt.

So right now I’m trying really hard to go down in weight. I can already see some changes as my jeans get a little bit loosen (Agh! New clothes = good bye money).

My best inspiration is usually by reading about somebody who have done something great and how he worked hard to achieve it. That stuff motivates me and probably most of the people. But a new discovery I made is that what really motivates me, is by thinking about the future. What kind of life will i lead? What kind of girl (or girls) will I meet? What kind of self-esteem will I end up having? This is what a lot of you would call daydreaming, but I wouldn’t call it bad. It makes me focus on stuff that’s important, so that when I’m running, I’m keeping that in mind. That the possibilities opens up for every step I take, for every squat I make, for every push-up I do, it will all NOT be for nothing.

It sounds like a weird goal for most people I guess, but after faced the highest risk I’ve ever had dying. I think maybe it might be normal, that you want to do these small things for yourself more than someone else that might be stuck. In one way, this sickness might have been the best and worst thing that have ever happened in my life, weird huh?

Anyway I weighted in at 80.9 kg this morning , around 15 hours ago. Fight on!


20 min pass

As I am having exams right now I don’t have time to blog properly. And to minimize unfortunately on training I found a training guide on Mens Health that only takes about 20 min (I do it on 30 though :(… )

Gonna try to stick with this one as well till Christmast.
Weight: 84 kg <- yay.


Lunch or no lunch?

Today I was meeting a friend for a lunch appointment. I woke up late and had to quickly hurry to the restaurant we were supposed to meet up. Texted him that I might be a little bit late as well. Then I ran all the way to the restaurant that is close to the university and my home. When I got there I started to feel nauseous and somewhat ready to throw up (thank god I did not!). So my lunch felt a bit ruined from the running, but it sure did felt nice to run there until I stopped. I guess it was because I slept in and just woke up and immediately started to run.

Went later for a walk but still feeling a bit nausea back and forward, drink more water and hope it gets over?

Todays lesson: Start getting used to running 🙂

Run for your life!

Well here are the results I guess. Note that I haven’t ran in a long time and my condition in running isn’t the best ^^;

Before I started to run I made a little playlist, to listen. I also used an app called RunKeeper to make a route on where I should run.

Yeah I know some songs are cheesy, but they’re great to run with ^^;

I was going to add the map I ran but I was afraid people might identify me as it is close to where I live. When I get photoshop I will post up the route. Newbie misstake was to run too fast in the beginning and get all tired when the last half of the track is pure uphill since I kinda live on the hill of the city. The route I picked was suppose to be 2.25 km I believe, but the GPS tracking went a bit weird so I ran around 2.4 km.

Oh, ate noodles after I got back (180 cal there -_-). The thing I started to do is drink a LOT of water before eating, and hopefully you don’t need to eat so much.

Cheers! Hope I keep this up.

Just do it!

What is a good way too lose weight? I’ve tried many. Such as stop eating rice, bread, pasta and other carbs, However then I get more tired when walking to school and I don’t feel especially good and as soon as I quit I started go up again. My next question to myself is. How bad do I want it? How FREAKING BAD Do I want it?! There are so many gains in loosing weight I can’t really keep waiting. The problem is everytime I go to sleep and wake up again, all my motivation is gone. So what do I need to do, to stay hungry? And how will I cope it with my studies?

My idea right now is to have some inspirational video clips with music to inspire me in the morning. The shit I need to watch so I can go do my stuff that I need. I remember before I became sick, I still had passion, I still had to do whatever it took to get into my dream university, I had to stick with it. When my younger brother asked me “Brother, I don’t know what to do to make my father proud, I don’t know what to do to make my mom proud, I don’t know that to do to make you proud of me? What should I do?”. I remember I said something along the lines “You don’t do it for anyone else than yourself, you don’t do it to get praised or to make anyone proud over you, you do it because you want it real bad!”. He then told me “I’m gonna do it, I’m gonna become something, I’m gonna do it right!” so many times that I almost got sick hearing about it and I told him “Just do it! Stop saying that your gonna do something and just do it! Plan your day and follow through your plan and get results! If you want it bad, you just do it!”. I feel right now like I’m teaching myself these steps again, after my first intensive chemotherapy attempt failed I lost air totally. I couldn’t think about anything, I was sad and depressed that I was never gonna see the eyes of my future children, and that my parents would outlive their son. I was sad that I hadn’t found that special someone to share my life with. And since I already gotten into my university of my dreams, I lost my motivation. As I said before this blog is for me to get on right track again and to really fight to get into shape and fix my school grades as well find something I’m passionate about. I very well know that even if I manage to do all that, I might not find the love of my life or my life might not get better. But that is not an excuse to sit back and not try.

I was into boxing a lot when I was in junior high so I thought this video will be the inspiration video I shall watch when I wake up.

It is time to get busy, by tomorrow I will start jogging a small route at a slow pace as I know I’m in a bad shape. As well as the air is getting colder in the morning. But I will get there for sure! I will post if I managed to jog my route by tomorrow, or if I was just a weak ass that kept sleeping in the bed. As I told my brother, I will tell myself

“If you want it bad, you just do it!”


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Hi Everybody!

As most blogs, I will start with an introduction. This blog has some clear goals, which I want to achieve in a close future. Hopefully within a year. I’m a happy-go-lucky guy, usually the nice guy that weirdly enough ends up as what most people in their perspective would see as “That girls gay friend”. Which is just bad since I’m not gay (not saying it’s anything wrong with it if that’s what rolls your boat) and was probably interested in those girls I hanged out with. But unfortunately ended up being Mr. Nice Guy, and have actually had girls saying right to my face “I’m sorry, your really nice. But you just ain’t my type”, “I’m not into asian guys”, “I could never consider myself going out with an asian guy” Youchie!! :P. Ah well was a bit bitter during my twenties since I didn’t date a lot. Then instead I got cancer (wohoo!) and unfortunately a quite late one (yay!). It took me 2 years to beat cancer with an intensive chemotherapy and when that failed I had to go for a auto log-stem cell transplantation plus some radiation! But guess what? I’m still here 🙂 (25-years old) and going to one of the finer technologic university which has been somewhat of my dreams.

So I survived cancer, what am I unhappy about?

Well here’s a list

  1. I’m fat! I weight over 85 kg (metric system baby!)
  2. I suck at school. Waste too much time doing something else.
  3. I don’t have a girlfriend and haven’t had it since I was around my 20’s (mostly because of sickness)

That’s three things that I’m unhappy with at the moment. Financially I’m quite stable and probably better off than others since I worked as an independent trader while I was sick, by being coached by a professionally independent trader (what I mean about that, someone who’s a millionaire in trading and been making money for the past 10 years, just so you don’t think I’m following some crazy gambler with luck).

I’ve been at 80 kg a couple a times but I always bounce up from there (technical support level lol?). I’d work on my height instead if I didn’t knew it was a fixed variable (174 cm). So what are my goals?

  1. 75 kg before Christmas
  2. Pass on all courses this half year with flying colors
  3. Try to at least go on another date or so

I will keep posting on my progress and we’ll see how it goes! Right now I guess nobodies reading this anyway so 🙂

Posting this video in memories of the creator of my devices and a person that motivates me to keep going on. RIP Steven.