What is a good way too lose weight? I’ve tried many. Such as stop eating rice, bread, pasta and other carbs, However then I get more tired when walking to school and I don’t feel especially good and as soon as I quit I started go up again. My next question to myself is. How bad do I want it? How FREAKING BAD Do I want it?! There are so many gains in loosing weight I can’t really keep waiting. The problem is everytime I go to sleep and wake up again, all my motivation is gone. So what do I need to do, to stay hungry? And how will I cope it with my studies?
My idea right now is to have some inspirational video clips with music to inspire me in the morning. The shit I need to watch so I can go do my stuff that I need. I remember before I became sick, I still had passion, I still had to do whatever it took to get into my dream university, I had to stick with it. When my younger brother asked me “Brother, I don’t know what to do to make my father proud, I don’t know what to do to make my mom proud, I don’t know that to do to make you proud of me? What should I do?”. I remember I said something along the lines “You don’t do it for anyone else than yourself, you don’t do it to get praised or to make anyone proud over you, you do it because you want it real bad!”. He then told me “I’m gonna do it, I’m gonna become something, I’m gonna do it right!” so many times that I almost got sick hearing about it and I told him “Just do it! Stop saying that your gonna do something and just do it! Plan your day and follow through your plan and get results! If you want it bad, you just do it!”. I feel right now like I’m teaching myself these steps again, after my first intensive chemotherapy attempt failed I lost air totally. I couldn’t think about anything, I was sad and depressed that I was never gonna see the eyes of my future children, and that my parents would outlive their son. I was sad that I hadn’t found that special someone to share my life with. And since I already gotten into my university of my dreams, I lost my motivation. As I said before this blog is for me to get on right track again and to really fight to get into shape and fix my school grades as well find something I’m passionate about. I very well know that even if I manage to do all that, I might not find the love of my life or my life might not get better. But that is not an excuse to sit back and not try.
I was into boxing a lot when I was in junior high so I thought this video will be the inspiration video I shall watch when I wake up.
It is time to get busy, by tomorrow I will start jogging a small route at a slow pace as I know I’m in a bad shape. As well as the air is getting colder in the morning. But I will get there for sure! I will post if I managed to jog my route by tomorrow, or if I was just a weak ass that kept sleeping in the bed. As I told my brother, I will tell myself
“If you want it bad, you just do it!”